lovess

woke up abt 5 plus went bath prepare ,

went out at abt 8.30plus ,

take 112 go point wait for jm , another guy n shen lee .

after eating cab to BQ ~

went white bar ~ quite nice place ,

drink drunk n DRUNK !

tis time i really DRUNK till jialat ~*

starting i trying hard to tc of someone*

chit chat , n i saw a reflection of me =X

i felt so terrible ,

went off at abt 4 plus after finishing martel ,

cab back hg , shen lee acc me at void deck dere ,

cus wen we get down the cab ,

i keep vomit !!

w/o making myself vomit i auto vomit .

stone stone* after dat idk wad i said or do =X

i jus noe i lie down n duno do wad shit things*

wen i wake up i regret doing dat ,

it hurts so much wen i am awake ,

imagine ???

after drunk a bit scared of drinking =X

bt i noe is for a few days only ,

i seldom drunk till like tis ,

th last time wen i drunk until like dat i duno is wen le x))

laughs*

normally is high a bit stone only ~

wad im tinking idk anymre ,

i jus noe i needed someone* to share my things ..

will be dere for me , a v best best sister .
wenever i wanted to cry , hw i wish right beside me will be my best sister ?

bt too bad .. everything has changed* including ppl ard me ~

n ME !!

i noe i cant stop them or stop things frm changing .

th main reason i changed till like tis is bcoz ,

things n ppl ard me r changing too ..

bt i noe i changed till ,

i duno wad im doing ,

i duno wad saying ,

i duno wad im tinking ..
i duno wenever i laugh , idk i laugh bcoz i happy ?

or jus the sake of entertaining ?

i duno wenever i cry , idk i cry for wad shit ..

can say dat my brain gone blank ,

my hart bcomes so EMPTY~*

my soul has DEAD ,

my body bcomes numb .
relationship r for wad ?

frens r for wad ?

can i rely on family ??

nth is forever dats wad i noe x((
idk wad is love or wad ,

i jus noe everyone is harmful ~

no one i can really rely on too much .
th only person i can try to rely on is myself ~

bt im weak , idk hw to tc of myself ,

cant even tc of myself hw to tc of others ??

laughs*

can someone let me rely on ?

sometimes i feel like staying inside my room ,
BT v bored , n i tink even mre ~

wtf ~ !! FARK IT OFF ~